Letting You Go

Dear Anne

I hope that all the years we spent together does meant something to you, for it is everything for me. I just want to ask why you did not tell me, you absolutely know that I can understand anything. I am in pain and sadness to know that you do not trust me for I trusted you my whole life. Tell me what I did wrong, so I can change myself to be the person you want me to be.

I want to say that you are the most special person that I know and I mean it. Please stay true to yourself; you do not need to please others, you just need to be whom you are. I see you, as precious as diamond; I am blind before, but not until you shine through my life. You gave me hope when I am feeling down and you cheer me up when I am depressed. I thank you, for doing it all for me.

You are such a blessing that God gave to me 4 years ago, and I treat you as a rare treasure. I care for you as you also did for me; I make you feel safe all the time because you are the first person that I truly love. I still have the book you gave to me and I read it from time to time. It taught me how life can turn into upside down and when it happens, I should be ready; but I guess I am not.

Bea, I letting you go if you already wants to leave. I do not want to see you suffer as you keep wearing that fake smile whenever I am around. I want to see the real one even though I am not the reason of your happiness. You are seeing somebody else when we still together and I knew that all along. I want to be mad at you, but I keep it on myself because I know that I would lose you.

For what that I should hold tight into the cracks of our broken dream. What is worth of fighting if you already surrender? I would do anything to fix the road so we can go to our destination, but you left me alone in the middle of nowhere. You always said that you miss me; poor little fool me, not knowing that you really mean is you do not want me back.

I still remember the night you hold tight and kiss me at the front porch of your house. We are so late and I am sorry that your parents become angry to you, but that was a great and memorable night. I want to go back one last time and enjoy every second that I am with you. That is the last time that I see you being delight and thrill, I will not trade-off those moment for anything.

I do not want to see you ruin by somebody else, even though you are now with someone else. Make sure that he loves you the way I love you. You always said that you miss me; poor little fool me, not knowing that you really mean is you do not want me back. I understand that you do not want me anymore and I respect your decision.

I still remember the night you that hold tight and kiss me at the front porch of your house. We are so late and I am sorry that your parents become mad at you, but that was a great and memorable night.                                           It is now all in my head and will stay forever. I am terrified that you will just forget me one-day coz I will remember you forever.

They say if you love someone, you would do anything, and I did everything, but you still look for something else. Now, I would give you what you want. I love you so much and I am now setting you free. I want to see you with the person that makes you happy and give all the things that you deserve. Always remember that I am happy for you.     Love, Simon

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